#071. Listen to episodes of MAIM TIME on your podcast player of choice, or on YouTube.



Jesus is not enough for you to become the strongest most capable competitive version of yourself. Only you are.


I went to Jubilee Church in Seoul for New Years to listen to yet another solid sermon given by Pastor David Hwang. Like for the Christmas episode, I summarize his message and then give my own cheeky heretical twist to it.

Peter’s Vision

The next day, as they went on their journey and drew near the city, Peter went up on the housetop to pray, about the sixth hour. 10Then he became very hungry and wanted to eat; but while they made ready, he fell into a trance and saw heaven opened and an object like a great sheet bound at the four corners, descending to him and let down to the earth. In it were all kinds of four-footed animals of the earth, wild beasts, creeping things, and birds of the air. And a voice came to him, “Rise, Peter; kill and eat.”

But Peter said, “Not so, Lord! For I have never eaten anything common or unclean.”

And a voice spoke to him again the second time, “What God has cleansed you must not call common.” This was done three times. And the object was taken up into heaven again.

This show’s about overcoming identity struggle to become the best version of oneself. If you have identity issues like I do, this is ultimately an essential path to self actualization. I talk a lot, about different topics. A core part of this show is I talk about the cultural identity split or conflict, and coming to terms with accepting one’s past and heritage in a healthy holistic way.

This is not that kind of episode. In recent episodes, I’m a posterboy for the hustle culture, blahblah I wanna be rich and now I’m all about being competitive and beating the competition and pure victory and becoming rich is all that matters. Last episode was about the gift of competition… I promise you, I’m not going to only be talking about competition, hustler mindset stuff. Honestly, I’m still just refining all my ideas and worldview as we go along, and you can chat with me, you can take whatever’s helpful or relevant to you.

This is what’s great about having a podcast, amongst so many benefits… I get to articulate my thoughts, learn about myself, do research, improve my communication. I obviously don’t have everything figured out, and that’s why this is a conversation. I love hearing your feedback, and I appreciate when you tell me your thoughts, whether we’re in agreement or not. You are also free to tell me if you think I’m wrong, and we can have a proper debate and discuss our differences. You can say, Hey Maim, I like what you said about this, it made me think of this. Why don’t you talk about this next time? You are also free to tell me, Hey Maim, you’re an IDIOT and I think all the shit you say is WRONG, it’s a bunch of bullshit, YOU TALK TOO MUCH, SHUT UP, and then we can have a proper debate and fight!

Shout out to my boy Mish for giving me feedback. It was very helpful. He told me, that some of the stuff I criticized Christianity or the church for, are not actually Christian ideals, or real Christianity. Basically, I’m doing strawman arguments or I’m talking smack about the religion, but that’s not the real religion. I get that. Take everything I say with a grain of salt.

You know, I go back and forth on my feelings for church and Christianity. I talk a lot of smack about Christianity, the religion. This is a form of therapy for me. I’m usually willing to change my mind when presented with new evidence or ideas, and I might even be using a strawman argument at times. The more important thing is I want to spread a positive message and influence people in a good way. I will state my beliefs, observations, and experiences very strongly, but I also want to respect that you choose to live your life however you want. There’s a balance between pushing people to change their behavior and improve themselves, while also allowing them to think critically for themselves and come to their own conclusions. Ultimately, I want you to think critically for yourself and come to your own conclusions. I wish I coulda listened to this podcast when I was in my teens. I would be 100 times the MAIM that I am now had I listened to MAIM TIME in my teen times.

There was a sermon at Jubilee Church for New Years given by Pastor David Hwang, so I want to basically summarize his message, then expound upon it, the way the New Testament expounds upon the Old Testament.

Acts 10:9-16

Pastor David Hwang

2023: Communion

This episode will be taken into 3 parts:

•Some domain knowledge about Christianity for those of you who didn’t grow up in this shit like I did

•The sermon content given by the pastor for the New Year service at Jubilee Church, his theme being Communion

•My exposition upon Christianity and Pastor David’s sermon, compounding the theme of Communion with Competition

If you didn’t grow up in the church as a Christian, there’s this thing called the Bible. You might have heard of it.

This is not a podcast on religion but I very well could start one, on just Christianity alone.

Bible’s divided into 2 sections, the Old Testament, and the New Testament.

Old Testament has 39 books, New Testament has 27. What is a “book” in this context? I thought the Bible was a book?

Basically, each testament has a bunch of books or various documents written by different people in different times in different languages.

It’s absolutely insane, you can spend your whole life and some people do, examining and studying these Holy Scriptures.

It’s basically rabbit holes that go back for thousands of years and then for all eternity.

It starts with the Jews. The Old Testament is old, written by the Hebrews, that’s like Abrahamic Religion v1.0.

It’s like the first version of Windows released in 1985. Then there’s the New Testament, called Windows XP, and Windows XP blew everyone’s minds, or something like that.

The New Testament is the part that makes it Christian, because it has the Christ, the Messiah, Jesus in it, okay?

If the Old Testament is a videogame, then the New Testament is like a sequel or expansion pack that adds a whole lot of new characters and lore. Abrahamic Religion 2.0.

Anyways, there’s the book of Acts. It’s a narrative history of the early Christian church, and it begins with the resurrection of Jesus and the ascension of Jesus into heaven. The book of Acts describes the spread of the message of Jesus and the growth of the early Christian community. It also records the major events and activities of the apostle Paul, including his missionary journeys, his arrest and trials, and his eventual imprisonment. The book of Acts ends with Paul under house arrest in Rome, awaiting trial before Caesar. You can find all this stuff online.

There’s this guy called Peter in the Gospels or the 4 accounts of Jesus’ life and death. He’s like Jesus’ right hand man, one of the 12 disciples who followed him. Peter plays a significant role in the book of Acts. After Jesus died, respawned and exited the server, Peter was one of the early leaders who carried Jesus’ message and told people about Jesus being the Messiah and the resurrection. Paul and Peter basically go on these epic journeys to preach the Gospel, the Good News.

The good news of Jesus, also known as the gospel, is the message that Jesus came to earth as the Son of God to save humanity from their sins and offer them the gift of eternal life. This message is based on the belief that Jesus is the Messiah, the savior promised by God in the Hebrew Scriptures aka the Old Testament, and that he died on the cross to pay the penalty for human sin and was resurrected from the dead, conquering death and offering the hope of eternal life to all who believe in him.

In the book of Acts, the apostle Paul and the apostle Peter were both leaders in the early Christian church and were actively spreading the message of Jesus. This involved preaching about Jesus and his teachings, performing miracles and healings, and establishing Christian communities in various cities and regions. It was a time of great growth and expansion for the early Christian church, as more and more people came to believe in Jesus and join the Christian community.

For Paul and Peter, spreading the message of Jesus meant dedicating their lives to sharing the good news of Jesus with as many people as possible. It often involved traveling to different cities and regions, often facing obstacles and persecution along the way. Despite these challenges, Paul and Peter remained committed to spreading the message of Jesus, and their efforts played a significant role in the growth and expansion of the early Christian church.

The good news of Jesus was central to the message that Paul and Peter, as well as other early Christians, preached as they spread the message of Jesus to others. They believed that Jesus was the only way for people to be reconciled to God and to have the hope of eternal life, and they were passionate about sharing this message with as many people as possible.

They won. The Christians won. That’s why every other dude you meet in the Western world is named Matt, Mark, John, Paul, Peter. That’s why if YOUR name is Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, Paul, Adam, Sarah, Rachel, Esther, Aram, Jacob, Noah, Benjamin, Elizabeth, Levi, Elijah, Hannah, Chloe, Abigail, Abraham, Isaac, Joseph… that means THEY WON.

Their efforts were SO POWERFUL and they had such a deep impact on humanity worldwide that now even people who don’t give a f00k about Jesus or Christianity at all still end up bearing the names of the early Christians who lived and struggled and died a couple thousands of years ago and even the Old Testament Hebrew names older than that.

So let’s talk about this week’s Scripture — this is what Christians do, a pastor gives a sermon preaching the Gospel and makes content based upon the chosen passage of Scripture, for that day, being Acts 10:9-16. A pastor contextualizes the Scripture for the church, the followers of Jesus today, in their respective language, to hear the Word of the Lord and live it out in their lives and blahblahblah.

Peter’s Vision

9 About noon the following day as they were on their journey and approaching the city, Peter went up on the roof to pray. 10 He became hungry and wanted something to eat, and while the meal was being prepared, he fell into a trance. 11 He saw heaven opened and something like a large sheet being let down to earth by its four corners. 12 It contained all kinds of four-footed animals, as well as reptiles and birds. 13 Then a voice told him, “Get up, Peter. Kill and eat.”

14 “Surely not, Lord!” Peter replied. “I have never eaten anything impure or unclean.”

15 The voice spoke to him a second time, “Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.”

16 This happened three times, and immediately the sheet was taken back to heaven.

This vision is significant because it is a sign from God that the message of Jesus is for everyone, not just the Jews. At this point in the book of Acts, the Christian church is mainly composed of Jews, and the message of Jesus has not yet been widely shared with Gentiles (non-Jews). The vision is a sign to Peter that he should go with the men sent by Cornelius the Roman Centurion, a Gentile, and share the message of Jesus with him and his household.

A side note: The skeptic in me sees this and says, “Wtf? God just changed His mind?

Cause Peter was a Jew of Jews, following the Jewish ways. He said, I’m not going to eat something unclean.

God says, don’t call anything impure that God has made clean.

Wtf? God, you’re the one who said these animals were unclean.

If this is the same God as in the Old Testament, the God of the Israelites, He’s the one that told these guys not to eat animals like shellfish and pork and rabbits because it made them ritually unclean. That’s super obnoxious.

Look, the Levitical laws in which YHWH, God, talks to Moses and tells him not to eat shellfish and pigs and rabbits and shit, that took place during the time of Exodus when the Hebrews left Egypt. That was supposedly 1300BCE — 1300 years before Christ. That’s like over 3000 years ago for us.

Imagine if I told you for over a thousand years, I’m your God, do as I say, don’t eat these things because they’re unclean and you are my chosen people.

You follow my laws, and then I tell you to eat these animals and you say no God, they’re unclean.

Then I say, B****, don’t call the animals that I have cleansed unclean.

What the fuck?

You know, it’s not like God was reasonable to Peter. Why didn’t He say, “I told Moses and your ancestors back in the day not to eat the pork and shellfish because you got sick, and I wanted to separate your people from the other nations. It was a different time back then, and I think you guys took it too far but I didn’t say anything because the time wasn’t right”?

But whatever, I think the real point of this message was that God was telling Peter he needs to get on the carnivore diet. It’s basically low carb, so Peter can become a lean mean Gospel machine for CHRIST.

So fast forward to January 1, 2023, and Pastor David Hwang is giving a great sermon on how this trippy passage shows God’s love for mankind.

See Peter went to go meet with Cornelius, who was a Roman centurion, and at the time, the Romans occupied Palestine and the Jews were not happy about it.

Nuh uh uh. This Roman centurion, was like a high-ranking officer in the Empire in Judaea. He is considered the first gentile, non-Jew, to convert to the faith.

Peter said that he and his friends should get baptized, and the Jews were like what? This was controversial at the time.

How could Gentiles also be saved by God? There were all the Jews believed that the Messiah, the Savior, and the salvation of God, was only for the Jews.

Jews are Jews, they’re God’s chosen people, they don’t eat pork and shellfish, and they’re circumcised, which is pretty hilarious if you think about it.

Pastor David said something which made me burst out laughing during the service. I’m in the service, there’s like a hundred people?

It was quiet, everyone was listening to him preach, and he said,

“The other Jews were basically shocked — how could Peter hang out with those UNCIRCUMCISED MEN?”

I died. I can’t believe we’re talking about this shit. I mean circumcision, that’s a discussion for another time.

The Jews were like, what the heck? This guy’s a believer?

This is like if Ukrainians today were to be hanging out with a Russian high-ranking officer that’s occupying their country.

This is like Koreans communing with a Japanese official during the Japanese occupation of Korea.

Why would you be hanging out with them? They’re the enemy.

Basically David’s whole point here is that the Gospel is not just for Jews, but for all peoples of all nations, and that’s cause God loves everybody.

It’s easy to love those who are family and friends. Even sinners or whoever can do that. But to love your enemies, that’s a whole ‘nother level m8.

Love everyone as Jesus loved you.

That’s why we’re a global church, sharing in communion, body of Christ that stuff.

Pastor David gave a great sermon on how we Christians are a community, a local and global community of believers.

He said the theme for this year 2023 is COMMUNION.

We must become closer and more connected to one another.

In this day and age, we’re so individualistic, closed off from each other, but we’re not just individualist consumers of content, we’re supposed to be Christians communing in Christ.

I mean, this is solid emotional spiritual religious propaganda, probably the most successful marketing campaign in all human history.

On a side note, I was applauding him in immense irony, Oh Hell yeah I’m a consumer of content, Pastor David.

I’m totally consuming all your content, so hard.

The way you make your hand gestures. The way you communicate with sincerity and passion to the audience. The passion in which you preach to your flock.

Give me all your content. I come to your venue, your beautiful church. I appreciate the architecture. The staff. The beautiful young community.

I see you have community outreach, fellowship, events yadayadayada. It’s a church.

Excellent marketing. If Hell was a real place, where I was forced to go to church every week, then I would go to this church.

Halfway through the sermon, I stepped out of the sanctuary because my brain was overfilling with ideas plus the fact that I’m doing my absolute best to devote every waking moment, every second of consciousness towards taking action to move me closer to realizing the absolute dream of a life that I want, that I deserve.

While everyone is sitting in there as a passive consumer of content, as sheep, I stepped outside and started typing the outline for this very episode and WORKING.

When I’m awake, I’m WORKING or doing something that aligns me to reaching my goals.

That’s COMPETITION. While everyone else is being a PASSIVE CONSUMER, I am being an ACTIVE PRODUCER, a CONTENT CREATOR.

If I’m consuming content, like a sermon at the church, I better be able to understand the message, and then reframe it in a way that adds more value to my own context and life circumstances and then put it into content that’s even harder hitting and BETTER than what I had consumed.

I am taking Pastor David’s theme of COMMUNION for 2023 that he has preached to his flock, and expounding upon it to give YOU something even BETTER, or more applicable and relevant to you, my dear listener.

In church, we have the Communion, the Eucharist. There’s the Christian ritual of worship where bread & wine are consecrated, and Christians get together, eat the little piece of bread and grape juice. I actually like that. I would prefer actual wine, especially like a huge jug, give me Jesus’ blood please so I can experience church hammered.

Communion is also defined as:

“the sharing or exchanging of intimate thoughts and feelings, especially when the exchange is on a mental or spiritual level.”

I’m here to share intimate thoughts and feelings of a mental and spiritual level with you… and I’m telling you that Pastor David’s wonderful Christian message is not enough.

It’s essentially the same message I believed in from the time I was a child. If you’re a Korean-American or diaspora growing up in a similar environment like I did, let me tell you, this isn’t enough. Jesus isn’t enough.

I’m not saying don’t be a Christian, not at all. All I’m saying is don’t let your devotion to Jesus or the church obscure the brutal nature of reality that God has made, the competitive nature of life itself.

What they didn’t teach me in church, what I didn’t learn in my childhood, was that this world is COMPETITION and that I must compete for the betterment of myself and for the betterment of mankind.

I wish they had reinforced to me that things are COMPETITIVE, and it’s only getting more intense as time goes by, and there’s only two choices.

You either get bigger, better, harder, faster, stronger or you degenerate and lose and die.

You either win or lose by a given human metric, be it strength, sport, war, money, fame, romance, status.

You’re either a WINNER or a LOSER.

You can be a WINNER, you just have to CHOOSE, WANT IT BADLY, and GO FOR IT.


There is a part of me that is still very Christian. I grew up Christian. It’s a foundation for my moral framework, which is my genuine love for all humanity and the universe.

I was baptized. That is still a meaningful thing to me.

My spiritual religious experiences are what made me who I am, to a great degree. Kindness, peace, love, repentance, forgiveness.

Going to church helped me learn all these things.

But I wish I had spent that time learning how to make money, work out, and train as a fighter instead.

I’d be 100 times the man I am now.

A HUNDRED TIMES richer, stronger, faster, better, and more capable of helping other people.

You know what made early Christianity successful, is that it appealed to the masses with its Communist values. The hopeless enslaved peasant class found hope in Jesus; kill them with kindness. The more the Romans persecuted them, the more they found meaning and solidarity in their struggle, the more their deeply spiritual and philosophical ideas spread as people died on the line for Jesus. Which is an inspirational thing. I’m still inspired by how people can be moved to be incredible and do incredible things because of what their faith in God does, and there’s always something to learn from that. A persecuted missionary who really believes in the salvation of mankind and is willing to put their life on the line for what they believe, and then they die as a martyr, and all the people who knew them strengthen in their resolve to take on their cross everyday and follow Jesus. That’s the most powerful spiritual propaganda in the world, that’s why they won. That’s why the Christians won.

It appealed to the hopeless oppressed masses.

Jesus loves you.

Not because you’re cute. Not because you have talent.

Jesus loved you in spite of your sins, so don’t worry about what happens in this life. In the afterlife, we’ll be with God forever, so it’s all okay.

I have a thesis that Christianity is fundamentally a religion for weak people.

Or at least, the Christian church that I’ve seen growing up in America and Korea is not conducive to promoting worldly strength.

It was made for the weak Jews who were conquered by the strong Romans.

You’re weak, you have no power, but it’s okay because God is the ruler of the Universe, Judgment Day will come, the believers will be vindicated and our enemies will be crushed. Yay.

Look, if the Jews were strong enough a nation to have conquered the world based on sheer might and military prowess, they would have.

But they didn’t, they were ruled over time and time again by many empires and other tribes. By the Assyrians, the Babylonians, the Romans.

That’s like Korea being subject to and occupied by the Mongols, to China, to Japan, to the US even now.

You see, they didn’t have might so they came up with their own evolutionary strategy; a virus of an ideology, of fighting with morality and egalitarianism to take the edge of competition and the moral high ground away from the mighty Roman Empire that would appeal to the masses and erode authority of the ruling powers that didn’t adhere to it.

Now that’s a story for another time, but I can see how Christianity really just hits Koreans differently. Oppressed Jews in Judaea ruled by Rome, just as Koreans suffered under Japanese occupation and ancient wars. It gives people hope to their miserable fucking terrible lives, hope for justice and righteousness and vindication, for peace and salvation and communion with God.

I’m telling you, or I’m suggesting, that if that sense of hope is no longer effective for you, as it was no longer effective for me,

then you must take action, not just wait for hope.

And you can’t just wait on love without earning it, and you can’t keep it without protecting it.

You know there’s this saying, it comes from a song. “I’m a lover, not a fighter.” I get triggered.


You must be willing and able to fight for those you care about.

What does your LOVE mean if you’re not willing to put EVERYTHING ON THE LINE?

This is the part where my homie Mish might say, well Jesus did put everything on the line, and Paul and Peter and the early church members were strong men who were brave, yeah I get that. They went HARD. Indeed, the modern application is always this, Oh Jesus died for me and the early Christians were persecuted so I have no excuse to not live out my life as the Lord has commanded me to spread the Good News even for fear of being ostracized or whatever. We should be warriors for Christ, and rely on God for strength, blahblahblah in all our daily endeavors.

However, the values of courage and producing real tangible results are not something I see actively espoused in most churches, because most people are average and weak and so are most people who call themselves Christians.

My current perspective is that the actual end result of Christianity — its theology, philosophy, and religion as a whole — is prone to condoning and breeding weakness insofar as I’ve seen it in the modern developed world. Because I see that as my own personal experience, as to what it did for me. Of course, this is a limited interpretation and I may say a year later, you know what, I grossly misaccounted for some other things and I’m totally wrong.

What does your love mean if you’re not willing to put everything on the line?

If you don’t, you’re just a FUCKING LOSER

A spineless coward

You have no HONOR

You’re literally a waste of life

Go fucking DIE

This is the Communion of Competition.

Get real, get better, or get fucked.

Pastor David’s message is of the Old Testament. It’s the New Testament, but I’m saying his traditional Christian interpretation of that passage in Acts is Old Testament to ME.

This message that I expound, this is the New Testament.

I’m expounding upon his exposition upon the New Testament spirit, which was an expansion on the Old Testament peoples and their way of life.

My Christian past, that was my Old Testament, the earlier half of my life.

Now, I’m 30, it’s a new year, I’m entering the second half of my life.

Fuck it, I’m starting my own Neo Post-Modern Christian Materialist Cult, combining the purest noblest grandest and most powerful values and philosophies that come from the Western and Eastern Civilizations, and I’m telling you MY interpretation which is pure true and most correct over anybody else’s in chapter 10 of Acts.

A ton of animals on a big ass sheet being shown to Peter,

God telling him Rise Peter, kill and eat

Peter says no, I’m not going to eat anything unclean

God says don’t call unclean what I made clean

You know what MY interpretation is? MY INTERPRETATION, which is going to make a deeper, more meaningful emotional and spiritual impact upon you so that you can realize what it takes for you to become the best version of yourself?

There’s a giant sheet containing all these fucking animals, that symbolizes nature

It comes down from heaven, it comes from God

God is saying this is Creation

This is the world

All the animals in the Animal Kingdom

All the different forms of life

This is Nature, that I have created

This is the Game of Life

You have to go kill these animals and eat

Go feed yourself

Make a killing

You killing other organisms and consuming their flesh — that’s natural competition

You’re competing, so compete

Peter’s being a BITCH

So much of a bitch that God has to tell him this, three times

No I don’t want to compete

I’m not going to make money, or I don’t want to get in shape

I’m not going to do everything I can to make a killing or live up to my potential

Then you can get fucked and die

I’m saying that to you because I used to think that way

and I wish someone had told me to get fucked or get better and excel

There’s nothing to apologize for when it comes to the basic principle of killing an animal, taking its life, and eating to survive

Humility and gratitude, yes. But the result must be made.

We needed the dense energy, the protein to feed our brains… to fight wars, build skyscrapers and spaceships, and to conquer the world.

Do not call anything unclean that God has made clean

God made this world and God made nature competitive, that we exert force upon the world, to bend it to our will

That’s just the game, not playing is suicide, I have to play it to the best of my ability and compete







What did your ancestors suffer for?

Famine, war, conquest, subjugation, humiliation, rape?

What things did they do to survive, just so that their genes could be passed on and made incarnate into you?

So that you could feel sorry for yourself, resent the world, cause you’re a third-culture kid, cause your parents don’t speak the same language as you and boohoo, isn’t that unfair?

Oh you encountered racism and kids called you a chink and told you to go back to China, maybe when you’re not even Chinese.

Or you were adopted, or half-Asian, and you’re the only minority in your neighborhood and you have a chip on your shoulder and nobody understands your struggle, boohoohoo.

So you have all these excuses, you could be fat, eat junk food, play videogames and jack off to porn all day and have acne destroy your face, be slouched over, slothful, lazy.

Oh you got that project you want to work on. You want to make that album. You want to build that business. But you ain’t doing shit.

You’re slow and you’re distracted and you’re lazy, and you’re a fucking LOSER, and you are FUCKED.

I’m only saying this because I used to be that person.

I used to be that overweight out of shape broke loser jacking off to porn all day playing videogames getting fat blaming the world, my parents, my ethnicity and my background and heritage for all my problems, wishing I wasn’t Asian, wishing I wasn’t born, being depressed, hateful, suicidal… I’m telling you, if I can change from that into who I am today, and stay on this straight and narrow path to excellence, then you can change too.

I’m telling you: Nobody is coming to save you, not Jesus Christ, not Saint Paul or Saint Peter, not God from Heaven Himself.

Nobody will help you accomplish your dreams but you.

You have no excuses. There are absolutely no excuses. Put them out of your mind.

You gotta make it work. No surrender. The sooner you realize this, the sooner you have clarity, and the sooner you take consistent actions to achieve your goals.

You gotta put the time in, hundreds, thousands of hours dedicated to you realizing your vision of the life you want to build.

I am living it, everyday. It’s 4AM on Sunday morning.

I’ve been going at it hard for the past several days, staying up late just to work.


This is just an example of me compounding my own unique life experiences and philosophy to give you something really unique that I don’t really find a lot of people talking about. I figure, either I really am a creative fucking genius or I’m an idiot and people just haven’t told me quite yet, but I’m not going to know which is which until I share it in public with other ideas.

Just kidding, I KNOW I’m a fucking genius, I BELIEVE in myself because I am the FUCKING MAN, and YOU NEED TO HEAR THIS SHIT and you should be grateful to hear this shit, because it will INSPIRE YOU and SAVE YOU GOD DAMNED MOTHERFUCKING TIME.




Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *